03/06/2013

Tonight was date night with lindsay. I had to work till almost 5, and I was supposed to be off at 4 so I guess that was the first clue to how my day was gonna be. First of all lemme just say I was supposed to wake up at 6am this morning and go workout at Levels. I had three alarms set and somehow I slept through all of them… So not only did I miss my workout, but I was also late for work. 

I ended up going home and showering and then I was out the door to pick lindsay up, We decided not to go to sandusky because the movie would have been starting when we got there. So we went to the closer mansfield… Some people would probably ask why I wouldn’t go to the closer one. I wanted to take her to this amazxing resturant, I hate when my plans get messed up. but anyway, we got to the theater about 20 minutes early and got our tickets to Safe Haven… Won’t lie, it was well worth the money. I was hooked the whole movie, and It was cool to watch a love story unfold as a dramatic past caught up with her. good movie lol.

When I was taking Lindsay home we were talking the whole way, and started to have a heart to heart pretty much. I coulda been home in 20 mintues, but instead we drove around for nearly an hour and a half just tallking about how she didn’t get into Grad school yet and how she feels like a failure and all this. I told her she can’t feel that way, that she needs to focus on all the good she has done. I tried to be there for her when she needed me. When it finally came time to come home I put the car in park, and looked at her. She started to reach for the door without even hinting a kiss, a hug, anything. So i asked her If i could have a kiss, and she kinda rolled her eyes, and then leaned in and gave me the most damnding peck of a kiss ever. I feel like deep down she hates me. I don’t know if that is me over reacting or what. I just hate the fact that we don’t seem to connect… I swear it is something I did or said. I drove home and felt so sad that she doesn’t want to show those emotions to me right now.

I learned in my psych class that if you want to find out when a women is fed up listening to you. they will interupt you when they can’t stand something enough. but it’s not like a mild one… it’s like they will almost yell something outta no where. Well my point is that Lindsay did this tonight a lot. I hope it’s not a sign of anything :