Xmas Depression

I’m still depressed. Not good. Christmas is just 4 days away and I feel like shit. Not good. Got the kids gift shoping done. Good. They are fucking brats and don’t need to get anything. Not good. (Xbox 360 for the boy, mp3 player and a bunch of clothes for the girl.)

Went to probation orientation and got the low down on what I need to do to stay out of trouble. Good. Gotta have the fines paid in 3 months $475 a month. Really not good.(Loan anyone?).

 " J " called me today and said she missed me an we can still talk. Really good.( It’s been a week). But she said no more pelvic thrusting. Not good. (At least she talking to me). Having not had a drink since the DUI. Good.

Gotta spend Christmas day with " A’s " family. Really, really not good. (I wanna bury her mother in the back yard). I will be getting blackout that day. Really, really not good. (for those who don’t know blackout is so drunk you don’t remember anything). The next few days are gonna be hard and busy. Let hope for the best. Just in case in not back on before Tuesday.

 Merry Christmas everyone may you get everything you wished for  !!!!! 

Life is a bitch, then you marry one, then you die.