No Reason 2 B Depressed

I don’t know why I feel depressed. I have had a pretty good week. The live in ‘A’ has been home a lot.  We went to the Flight Club (This is a high end strip club). She got a few lap dances. It’s pretty nice (clean women’s bathrooms if you go with a female.) We have been having a good few weeks no arguments and lots of sex. I made up with the ex ‘J’. She now realizes we are not in a relationship and if we see each other it’s just for a booty call and nothing else. No going out to dinner, no dates, no holiday gifts (like Valentines Day). I’ve been going to AA Meetings which has been good. I’ve been sober for 50 days and got my 30 days sober coin a couple of weeks ago. I still have not found a home meeting or sponsor but I’ve been going every week to different meetings. I went to the casino put in 20 bucks in the dollar slots and won 500 bucks. I don’t know why if feel some indifferent towards everything. I should be happy. I’ve even made a few bucks doing peoples taxes. Maybe it’s cabin fever from all this bad winter weather. I am so ready for a vacation. I don’t get one till the end of March. (Yeah spring break).  I can’t wait to go to Las Vegas. But that’s not till June. My cousin is still been difficult about going to Cali instead of Florida for mancation (a vacation for men only). If he wants to go there so bad why did he move away? (He still has not said why he left). I am so ready for summertime, only 4 more months to go.

Life is a Bitch, then you marry one, then you DIE.