Through Surfacing
Love. It has been some days since I last wrote. I have had a crowded spirit. Some days it was difficult to remember to breathe. I believe I forgot on some days. Today, I am far more settled and relaxed than I have been in a long time.
I know the problem. I have been saving one of my meds for my son. I am currently in a difficult financial situation and am choosing to save one of my meds for my son in case we are unable to afford a refill for him when he needs it. I can collapse into a dark mental place without it, even though I never believe that I will the next time that I don’t take it. But fortunately things will be resolved soon, and I have resumed my meds.
I do not have many words for this entry. I am saving them to respond to all of you whom I have missed reading over the past days. I look forward to catching up with each of you. Amen.
It’s so very noble of you to save your meds for your son. I also did that for my son, before he died. He was tortured by Life and is now at peace.
It was so very generous of you to offer a shoulder to vent on. I am having trouble with another member of OD, who is bent on saying rude and snide things about me. I know better than to respond in kind, but it does bother me that she leaves notes like that on my Friends’ entries. All I can really do is lead by example and pray that she stops.
Thank you for listening and I hope you are as well as you can be. G-d bless you.
@novembercirese Yes, I can remember OD dramas from years ago. They feel most painful to me because they occur in a space where I am (and I believe many others are) intending openness and politeness. It is hard, but I agree with your wisdom – leading by example is sometimes the only route left open to us. I am always conflicted on whether I should offer to speak words to another person on behalf of someone that I care about – on one hand, perhaps it is none of my business, but on the other, I am not afraid to say words, and I believe I have learned to be more gentle with them than when I was younger. If you would like any help I can give, consider my help offered.
I will choose to hope we can put these negative thoughts further in the back of our minds for today and continue unburdened into the adventures ahead. Peace to you.
@iamnur You are just lovely. I’m so glad we’re Friends.
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It can be so tough to have to go without meds. But its so good to hear that have resumed them! ❤
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