04/04/2011

I still have my assignment to do… it was due yesterday but then the prof extended the due date to April 13 so instead of finishing the simple assignment I decided to procrastinate further! 

I still can’t figure out what I want to do… i look for jobs daily but there is nothing available, and if there is it pays far less than what I make now. OR it’s the same hours and I am sick of working nights and weekends, I  want my life back! 

My weekend off was nice… I won’t have one again until next month.. sad I know, but that’s what my work life is… 9-9 every weekend… say goodbye to my life every weekend. I miss having them. 

Friday night I went out to the bars and got trashed and danced my heart out, it was a fun night … it had been a while since i had  gone out! I wore a black summer dress only because I realize I am too fat to fit into anything else… I put on a shirt that I wore last summer that made me look tiny and skinny and I had love handles sticking out.. ew. 

I am going to the gym tomorrow, I have volleyball tonight and plan to work my butt off, I want to goto the gym everyday this week til friday to try and get a head start on weightloss… even if i don’t do tons at the gym I want to at least go there and do something. 

Saturday was my grandmas birthday so I went over with the fam and wished her an 87th birthday! She looked really nice, we put out a new outfit for her to wear and the nurses did her hair and makeup she looked great! 

In the afternoon I went to matts and we went over to a hotel that we booked to have some time to ourselves… we never get a chance to have his house to ourselves so we went to a hotel and enjoyed lots of loud sex! ha 

We had a great time, home on sunday to have a nap and more sex at his house… it’s not like we don’t have sex at his house but its more uncomfortable for me because I know they can hear us and they do because they all joke around about it how we are addicted to it. 

Matt and I figured out that on average we have sex at least 10 times a week… it was insane but it’s so true.. we see each other everyday and have sex everytime we see each other, and then there are days where we have sex a few times in a day, right before work in the evening or in the morning before work. It’s so crazy i have never been attracted to someone SO much, and he feels the same way . And it’s not like all we do is have sex, we talk and cuddle, go for walks, watch movies, just laze around and be with each other… but we want each other on every level its amazing. There are times where we had just finished having sex and then start kissing and do it all over again and we both want it and act as if we haven’t had it in months! but literally it would have been minutes !! 

I am happy that we are sooo happy together it makes me appreciate what we have so much because not everyone has that. 

Actually Derick my ex, had messaged me on facebook the other day, we don’t have each other as friends… he had said "hey hows it going, havent heard from you in a while i was wondering if you wanted to get together for a drink or somethign" or not doesnt matter, have a good one " 

I had replied back saying how life was great and that I am really busy with work and school so I dont think I could make it (very true, but I also dont want to get together with him) and that I hoped things were well with him 

He never replied back so I am just like whatever, don’t message me and then just not respond because you are pissed I said no. This is why he won’t ever be in my life, I can;t stand him. I had told matt about it and he was fine with it, he joked that I was getting back together with him but he knows I wouldn’t meet him and I assured him I was with him and only him and I said he just wanted to hear how great he was 😛 and he said yea he did, haha it was cute 

not sure what else to talk about! I am growing some plants… i have cucumber, dill, watermelon, beans, and cat grass… everything is growing really well especially the cucumbers I am very excited!