03/20/2011

 I set today aside to work on an assignment… so what better time for an update?! i need to stop procrastinating… haha I just HATE this assignment! 

Life is same old, I am generally happy and busy. I am still working 2 jobs and doing school, trying to manage friends and a boyfriend. I am excited for when school is done and I can just relax! 

I am in a bit of a life decision moment… I have three options:

1. Move to Ottawa and work (try to find full time work) in my field, Matt says he would come too.

2. Go back to school full time next september for Early Childhood Educator a one year program with placements which can give me more options down the road. 

3. Work at my job now and do the school board job next year and focus on that, it’s a call in basis only so the hours aren’t guarenteed

I don’t know what to do, ever since getting my Developmental services worker diploma I have been trying school for different things, I loved that program and want to work in the field. I know the job I have now (working in a group home) is enjoyable, I love the clients i work with and most of the staff are great.. however I am so tired of working evenings and weekends (9-9 saturday sunday EVERY weekend except my one weekend off a month) The school board is where I want to be but not as a supply, I want full time… I get into this dilemma of what to do. 

I am still trying to figure it out… all options are possible and right now I don’t know which one I want… I am leaning more to the going to school for ECE and becoming a register ECE that way I can work as an EA in schools or in kindergarden class which is amazing 🙂 

Things between Matt and I are great, we had a really nice day together yesterday… the only issue we ever have is about alcohol… and I know what everyone is thinking but he really has changed… he drinks once a week if that, and I am usually not around…. I know it sounds like I am enabling him but his situation is different… he is not dependent on it and he doesn’t feel the need to drink all the time. He did over a year ago but things have changed and I think he is much happier doing this, I know he doesn’t want to never drink again… his goal was to be able to drink like "normal ppl" in the sense of have a few beers and have a good night… not have 30 beers and fall down and blackout. 

And our issue was only on St Pattys day which was nothing really, we got over it in like 15 minutes. 

I am trying to get my ass into gear and get back to the gym but it’s hard when I am so busy and I would rather see friends then go by myself to a gym. So I am probably going to resort back to hardcore restricting until I can get into gear at the gym… it won’t be difficult considering lately I haven’t really been eating much, one meal a day because I forget and then I am like oh ya I havent eaten today.

Two bad habits that need to be kicked are drinking Coke and eating late at night