02/28/2011

 Life is going… I’ve been working a crazzzy amount… I was required to stay at work on Friday so I ended up working 14 hours on only 3 hours of sleep, and then saturday/sunday I worked 12 hours each day.. 

I have been at it since last Tuesday and I won’t be done til this Friday. The crappy part is I still feel like I have no money. I mean I have money going into RRSPs and a savings bond ( 160 now?) but in my own personal bank I don’t have any savings… I feel like I am just spending my money on food and random things. So I need to budget better. I know I have about 500 in bills but I make more than that in a month… not sure! 

I am really happy with most parts of my life, I really want to find another job though mines is frustrating and theres alot of bullshit drama thats happening and I am sick of it… and I am tired of working nights and weekends, it’s tiring and I want to see people ya know? 

I am REALLY happy with my relationship with matt, we are so compatiable it’s insane! We never fight ever, and rarely even are annoyed with each other, we had it happen twice where we were getting annoyed at silly things and we actually figured out it was because we hadnt had sex in 24 hours… isnt that hilarious!? We thought so, so we decided whenever we do get annoyed at something silly we "stop drop ad have sex" haha

We have amazing sex too, we both can do whatever we want, we are so comfortable with each other.. and everytime we have sex it’s so different and better than the last, it will be wild and animalistic or just sensual and romantic (which ends up being animalistic haha) We have such a connection with each other and I can honestly say that there has only been 2 times where I saw him and we didn’t have sex… 

We always do we can’t help it either… we’ve literally been getting dressed to go out (just after having sex) and end up stripping down and having another round! Ha take this morning, he set his alarm for work and fell back asleep so his friend knocked on the door and said that they were getting a ride so Matt got all ready quick and as he was dressing I was like get over here I just had to have him but his ride was coming so he left but then he found out that the ride wouldnt be there for 20 minutes so he came in and said he had 20 minutes and he wanted to cuddle or do other things and then we had a quicky it was amazzzing! 

Anyways I just really love him, we obviously are really connected in so many ways, we can talk to each other honestly and I can be my self around him completely… no hiding anything or holding back telling him things… the only thing I have not told him was that I have this diary and I was about to tel him the other day but we got off topic… Other things I have told him I have never told a soul so its pretty amazing.

We talk about marriage and kids, and having pets and a house… I know he is who I want.