Playing House
Today is Friday and Alan gets his kids this weekend…Which means I get to play with the babies and just chill out. I love the weekends he gets them. It reminds me of the dinner we had over there right after Lil Mike was killed and Jeffcoat, Lauryn, Johnny and Ashley, me and Alan and the kids of course. It was so funny Ashley asked if Chris threw things and we all laughed and he hurled two toys all of a sudden, we just sat there and talked.
But pretty much its the little things that make me happy anymore, a simple hug or a smile or anything like that makes my day anymore. I guess you learn to appriecate the lil shit in life. Like sittin here and just watching Alias. I don’t know what to do anymore, I ran into a really old friend yesterday and thought about all the things that had happened and how tired I am around the edges. And then at the mall the other night I ran into a chic named Hannah, which Alan knows her boyfriend Anthony. Its creepy how everyone knows everyone anymore.
And wow, yesterday was April Fools Day, I completely forgot, maybe I’ve forgotten how to take a joke anymore…I hate the fact that life has turned out like this and that all the pain that I’ve caused and have been dealt but that is life right? I guess so. But, wow that word is there alot anymore.
I wonder where I lost me and found the stage which I act on everyday. I want the life with the kids and the home, is that so wrong?
~~Much Love and Peace~~
It is not wrong. The older people get the more they want those things, no matter who you are. You’re on your way to domestication…((LOL)). I hope you are feeling a little better, I know it is hard, but hopefully you are on the way to recovering from losing your good friend. Lata Gata –
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I just hate to see people bash other people for things they do that are really none of their business. It doesn’t matter what a person does with their life nobody else has a right to judge it. Who died and left them judge and jury. The ones that do are the very ones that are so hypocritical it’s pathetic.
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If someone did that to them they would say it was their life and none of anybodys business and to “shove off”. But when they do it to somebody else it’s OK in their eyes. They believe it’s justifiable. Oh well….I just say it’s your life and what you do with it is your decision. And that goes for anybody. Enjoy life it’s too short.
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good friend my ass, she referred to lil mike as her bad karma for mistreatin kyle, traumatized him for the rest of his sadly short life, and then used his passing as a way bend the truth and make up incidents that never would have happened. She didn’t give two shits about that man, and still doesn’t. Its sickening how gullable people are when someone spreads their legs… often.
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You’re welcome. You might want to change your catch phrase, doesn’t seem like anybody is getting love or peace from you.
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Umm, in regards to your note on TopOfTheWorld stating that you are I are “well” – you didn’t really mean that, did you? Because I could gladly live the rest of my life in happiness if I never had to see your two-faced bitch ass ever again. As could 99% of the people who have ever met you. Sorry, I couldn’t resist a little dig. Much Peace and Love!
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Forgive her…..Ignorant is as Ignorant does.
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Of course Queen Of Ice that crew may not ever get that one. It may be a bit over their heads. It does seem though that with a crew of highly intellectual beings…so intellectual that the mear excitement of having a chance to show off their intellect makes their stomachs hurt..
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That they should be able to get that one with ease.Let’s cheer them on. YOU CAN DO IT, YES YOU CAN.
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blah blah blah you are nothing to me, i thought i saw something worth something in you and i was horribly wrong now your nothing
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When did you get a leash around your neck? Dont let that redneck bastard call me 50 million times, wanna talk to me? Yahoo ID – TravelJacknc you know who this is
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We just sent a tow truck driver away because he was looking for Kyle’s car and Kyle isn’t here. Apparently you not only claimed the Talon is still in Kyle’s name and he should be paying for it you gave him our home address so he could come for Kyle’s car. Kyle is in trouble because of your lack of responsibility again. Bri saw you sign the car over. It’s time for you to grow up.
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If you can’t work and pay for your car then too bad for you but after all the monetary troubles you’ve already caused him it’s time to move on with your life or at least focus on using someone else. He did so much for you and you were so ungrateful at the time. I cannot believe you would sink this low. Guess the jokes on me, you don’t have any standards to live UP to, just new places to sink.
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