Ok last part

There are time when I begin to think that I need to put my disclaimer on my diary in HUGE letters.

Dennis asked me why I put that stuff on my diary and I repsonded with,”Its my dairy, that is why I have one”

I don’t know, I mean I still answer to Dennis, I still bounce to beck and call. I will never understand this.

Its like, “We’re not together, but you can’t be with anyone else.” And I’m like “Ok” *Shots self in foot* I don’t understand this situation at all.

Ok people here is the old one-two. Went out Saturday night. Saw some old friends, they are in a band. I had alot on my mind. I slept with the singer. He reminded me of Dennis. Well of course, If I could go back I would change it. But Dennis read my diary and not happy reviews…

He is rather upset with me. Which I understand I do, somewhat but…I mean Dennis has me, he has always had me, but now we are in limbo, something has to give besides me.

And to make everything better…”Dead Silence” might be going to Wilmington to play a gig. Isn’t that grand? I feel as though my world is crashing down and coliding. I don’t really understand. If Dennis told me today them or me. He would win.

Here is my friend Christa’s opinion: “KFC has the best mac and cheese ever! JK I think you should decide if you love Dennis ebough to be at his beck and call. You are 18 and can go and fuck whoever you want to”

Yeah thats christa. But the point of that is, she disagrees with the whole thing. I am sick of people tearing me and Dennis apart. But until we start changing our ways we deal with some things it will always be like this.

Ok the key to me and Dennis is we avoid the major issues. You know the uncomfortable ones, we don’t talk about them so alot stays unresolved….

Honesty is also lacking. I knew what and who Dennis was when I met him. So I don’t understand why he tried to put on a front. I love him reguardless.

Its odd, I don’t really consider Saturday night as anything important. Of course alot happened that I am not telling. But I think that if it doesn’t matter to me then why is it a issue.

All I know is that my guys are so hott and got some nice skin. But I can’t get into all of that. But I love um to death and that is it.

I just wan to get on with my life and forget Sat. and Sunday. Alright I’m gonna break it down for you people:

Danny: My ex, a great guy, don’t talk shit bout anyone, funny, sweet, and taken by Jamie, back off chics.

Travis: Good friend known 2 years, Got all of a sudden hott! *fans face* jesus. Almost a bro to me, he is single.

Brandon: My next baby daddy, he volunteered. Lol. He is nice, sweet, funny and so adorable it hurts. And he’s mine. Back up off hoes. Naw I’m playing….Try me.

So Travis is single, so is Ryan, Danny is not. And Bradon is mine..lol…Its only friendship I promise..*cough*

But I’m tired of thinking and living…I’m starting to tempt fate again and just be bad…I’m finally gonna decided what I want and what is good for me and not everyone else

~~Much Love and Peace~~