December 8, 2003

My Karma

You are my Karma.

My poetic justice if you will. You were the one that made me a fool, my waterloo. I think back to the people I have hurt and think, I had the power to hurt them, I hurt them, I broke them, and you broke me. I swallowed my pride, morals just so you could lie to me. I gave up being his everything, to be your little secret. I was too good for everyone else, but never good enough for you. I’ve lead others in circles, but you were the one that made me jump hoops. You had the power to melt my ice. You got to me, as others never could, and didn’t care.

You are the irony of my life.

You made me open up and to feel, and to smile at the beauty of love. And to beg to die when the pain of betrayl and hurt was just to much.

Too much, yet never enough.

It was like I was never there. I shared your bed, never your life. You had my heart, yet I never got yours. But I don’t regret a thing, except the lose of a innocent life. We did nothing but slowly kill each other. But we created life.

So lets raise a glass, and make a toast To:

Love, Lose, Hate, Pain, Growing up, but not old, The death of a dream, the lose of ideals and innocence and most of all, To Life. For out of pain and suffering comes Life. We completed the circle.

~~Much Love and Peace~~

angelinwaiting

December 9, 2003

I know what you mean, only one guy has stolen my heart, and he still has it. I’m not even sure if he knows it because I’ve put up so many borders. Plus he’s after a girl in another state who is doing to him what he is doing to me; I have two guys who are trying to get me but I won’t allow it…it’s a huge circle of anguish in which no one wins… ~Marci

kelli hey its been a long time since i’ve made contact with you not knowing if to trust it but im gonna take a chance if you will talk to me and want to bring back our friendship that i think we once had just email me. the past is gone and done i’ve learned that so contact me. wolfdruidofice@teenagedirtbag.com—–charles tanner

Hey girl its me. you know my diary name so leave a note. Its been a while since we wrote and i just want to say that I don’t like trashy people writing in you diary…They need to step back from it. but besides that drop me a line sometime…talk to you later okay. signed dragon angle

continuing from my previous note certain people think you are their friend girl that is a life… so sad if i do say so myself. well girl you have my number and you know to call me and everything…check you later…like i said before drop me a line… love love…

Kelli, Hey girl! I wrote Charles a letter and told him to leave you alone that you didn’t need little kids to mess with you that you had better things to do and you were better off. I even mention that you were far from here and didn’t want to be followed by childrens…But anyway if you ever want to call my number is (843) 665-1143. Call between 4 and 10…But I have to warn you though Mondays…

continued…I go to church or out somewhere with kenny and weekends I usually go to his house…Though I would tell you so you want call when I’m not here and my new email addrews is knitewolfegirl@bellsouth.net and my screen name is knitewolesgirl…so write me or im me sometime when you see me online…talk to you later girl…love love…

YOUR A SLUT THAT WANTS EVERY GIRLS MAN THAT YOU CAN HAVE!!!!! YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO BACK YOUR SHIT UP AND YOU LOOK LIKE A DAMN BEAVER. GET OVER YOUR DAMN SELF AND I JUST CAN’T WAIT TILL SOMEONE KICKS YOUR ASS, CAUSE I WILL BE THER WATCHING. LATER SLUT

To Earthward

January 15, 2004

No beaver is way off. She’s always been a chipmunk. Short, hyperactive and able to eat seven times her body weight without gaining a pound. Wait…chipmunks don’t do that last one do they?