And the skies opened and rain fell…

As I sit here perched on Nikki’s bed, just me and Leon chillin…Kristin has the “plague” lol and Nikki is going shopping with Andrew. I realize I am still so alone, right now I am listening to Moonlight Sonata..I love this piece…Its is so solitary to me and I feel like that. I realize that me moving so frequently that I have lost clothes and such which really really sucks but I had more than I really needed anyway.

I found out that an old family friend died and that really kills me. I loved this person alot, she was part of my past and really my last tie to my hometown which is now gone. Which hurts me and makes me feel free. But I question freedom, if you are so free aren’t you missing out on ties that often are termed responsibilities. I really have no purpose I don’t need to do anything really. I am not needed…And at one time that was all I wanted, I wanted to be free, to be me. I don’t need to be that free to be me…I have really fucked myself over on this.

I look into the mirror

she looks like me

I watch as she takes a slice at her skin

I look down, I bleed too

No pain, it never leaves

I can’t tell where I begin and she ends

Its always there, I can’t tell when more comes

I slice and cut to release it

Maybe one day I will release my soul

~~Much Love and Peace~~