UGH I made it

Well I made it to Opendiary again lol…I haven’t been on in so long that it’s just complicated…I have no time on the net anymore really just don’t care…WOW never thought I would say that….Life is busy and filled with day to day life things that are somewhat ineresting but not interesting enough to write about…I think these last few months I have come down with writers block…Which hence the reason I haven’t been writing in here like mad, like I used too!!!  JOn and I are fine and so is the baby…well so says the doctor from my last check up but like I say I ain’t getting my hopes up in case this pregnancy doesn’t wanna work out either so till then I am holdin gmy breath and praying like a mad religious woman!!!   I come oon here  all the time to read everyone else’s updates but always completely forget to write on of my own….It’s not that I don’t care I just don’t have the passion for writing altely…been so god damned stressed that I just think if I write it will come out as nothing but complaints and a bunch of whinning ramblings so I choose not to write instead but I figured if I don’t write something soon opendiary will cut me off of some writing privilages (sp?).  Jon is the sweetest thing ever I can’t believe he picked me lol…he’s been so uplifting and so good to me since the very beginning and now how is it possible that he got better since finding out hei sgoing to be a Daddy…I don’t know how it is possible but it’s so totally true he has been so GREAT!!!!!  The girls at work are totally looking out for me as well making sure I don’t lift anything heavy but still busy enough to keep my mind from going blank and being useless on the job lol….I don’t know exactly how far along I am right now but My belly is getting the paunch to it and well it’s kinda complicated I really can’t find the words to express it I will write more when I know for sure that everything will be okay about the baby….

Love,
Me