(1) Frustrating…
I am finding writing on here (and not writing on here) rather frustrating at the moment. I have so much to say, so much to write down, and get out of my head and I can’t seem to find the words to do it. I know that if I just managed to sum up the last few weeks I’d be able to write without feeling the need to explain so much.
Maybe I should just kinda write anyway. You know, catch-up as I need to. Maybe do like a couple of my favourites do, and write shorter entries a couple of times a day until I get on top of it enough to write longer, daily entries.
I feel like I’ve lost my style. Actually scrap that, I feel like I’ve lost ME. My sparkle, the things that make me, ME. And I have no idea how to begin to get me back. It’s so frustrating. And the more I think about it, the more frustrated I’m getting, and the more I’m losing me. Pffft.
Maybe I’m going through some kind of mild breakdown or something. I just hate everything. I can see the positives in things but cant stop myself being more focused on the negatives. Maybe its just going to take time?
Rah! I hate how I’m coming across as just a whiny little bitch. I’m NOT. I’m just getting stressed out about things. I guess I am a whiny little bitch.
Right that’s enough before I piss myself off more!
Sorry guys for making you read all that. xx
Better addressing it now rather than become bitter and twisted in your relationship sometime in the future
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Who the heck left you that note?! ^^^^ How supportive..? NOT. Sometimes just putting down some bullet points in a private entry helps, then come back when you have some time and expand them into an entry. The beauty of this place is the secret little support network it gives you when you feel like crud and don’t want to inflict it on people you actually see day to day. Chin up sweetie.. We all have moments like this. Remember when I nearly had anti-depressants? Sometimes we just don’t feel like ourselves and can’t help it/don’t understand why. Try to laugh at least once a day, even if it is a stupid YouTube video or something. Laughter makes you realise that it’s never the end of the world, whatever it is xx
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God it’s nearly been a month since you last wrote! Let it out my lovely!! xx
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I think certain people — let’s call them anonymous cowardly douchesandwich ****asses — forget that the diary is YOURS, to express your thoughts, your experiences, and your fears. Working out emotions in entry form is a great way to make yourself examine things in a new light. Write whatever you need in order to find your way back. Good noters will wait. Bad noters will be verbally eviscerated and left weeping in a pool of their own (or someone else’s) urine.
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