11:52pm

This has been a crappy month already.

My aunt is dying of a rare leukemia that only children are supposed to get and the doctors are only giving her a month to live.

My mom had a surgery of on her veins in her leg and she had an aneurysm and nearly died.

Work is finally busy but like all things I’m falling behind.

Bedroom stuff is just….meh.

I wish there was some passion not resentment, desire not repulsion.

I wish my wife did desire me, not simply ration off sex. Often it just makes me feel like I’m bothering her. Makes me feel worthless.

Hate this feeling.