11.23.10

*dusts off this box*

So I have sat in front of this very screen ten times this week trying to write and my mind just wouldn’t budge, like a rectal tract with too much Fiber 1. So I sit here now and am just letting my mind rip open and vomit out whatever is on my mind

Work is work and my boss remains slow as a three toed ground sloth. Honestly. I generate forms, proposals and shop drawings for the architect to redline and he hasn’t even put anything together for the production crew. It fucking sucks when your boss has no ambition or drive.

I need to get out of there.

Speaking of which I spoke with my father today, apparently my old boss Steve is doing well enough for himself that they are working the day after Thanksgiving. Lucky bastards. Everytime I hear about the jobs they are on (READ: The jobs we aren’t getting) my heart sinks. 

I miss that place. 

Most of all I miss working with my dad. He just knows so much and talks to you like you are capable of picking things up, unlike my current boss who thinks he’s the only one capable of completing tasks without error. 

My dad mentioned that the estimator Steven has been screwing up alot lately and that he thinks he is looking to get out of there. If the position was offered to me I’d jump in a heart beat given the right terms. I probably have said here in the past that I would never forgive my old boss for what he did but I need to put pride aside in light of my boss’ lack of drive. It’s almost like he wants the place to go under.

My Vegas trip was great, I needed it and it needed me. I only ever need to be there for a short period of time before I get tired of the whole scene, honestly once a year is more than enough. 

Marriage counseling kind of took it’s toll on Nina last week, after the therapist pointed the finger at her for the reason we are there she was crying after we got home. Not good. I have my faults in it but yeah there is a solid chunk of this which is her. How do you change someone’s habits when they have a strong belief they are right when in actuality they aren’t?

Shibari: I am still reading, activities yet but I think this upcoming week I will discuss with Nina about trying it out. I am really interested in the photography of David Lawrence shibariartphotography.com/ . Much of what he has done is amazing and it would be keen to replicate some of his works even at a smaller scale. But much of that is critical of having a willing partner, so I’ll wait on that answer.

Writing: I am working on something, right now I’m at the storyline phase of things and trying to flesh out the first chapter. I have a few more ideas and mechanisms to work through.

Turkey Day – At my parents, nina has off that day so it should be fun for us all. I’m thinking about grabbing Friday as an off day but we will see, it would be nice to just relax on a Friday for a change.

Otherwise I am ok, how’re you?