Monday, September 23, 2024

I finally ordered some kitchen barstools…and as I was getting them put together, I realized one of the stools had 3 of the same legs…and one different.  There are suppose to be two legs the same and the two other ones that are different than those two so that the stretcher bars can fit.  Ugh!!  I was so excited to finally have some barstools in the kitchen so I wouldn’t have to eat on the couch or outside anymore.  Oh well.  There is still one to use.  I message the company to see what they will do about it…I’m kind of annoyed because I already have it out of the box and partly disassembled so shipping it back would be a real pain.  I just need the one right leg, ha.

It’s so nice to have a place to sit and type at the counter though.  I really hate writing/typing in bed, I just can never get into a comfortable position.

I had one client today, it was a really easy day.  After this weekend, I feel like I need this week to just kind of get my shit back together from being sick all of last week.

I had a wedding Saturday and that went really well.  It was an hour drive, but so pretty on the way out there.  The wind was blowing like crazy though and so I felt really bad for everyone trying to set up all of the decorations for the ceremony that was taking place outside.  I think it did die down by the time the ceremony came around…but not really by much.  I saw a few of the pictures and they looked great, especially with the way her veil was blowing in the wind.

Yesterday, I had a client for a blow out and style for her senior pictures she was taking later that day.  That went well, too.  She had so much hair though and instead of an hour long appointment, it ended up being 2.  I came home around 12 and my roommate was just getting out of bed.

After I changed and fed my cat, I drove to visit my sister.  We had lunch in town and talked about decorating her new house.  I am suppose to go help her paint this weekend.  She’s coming to town Wednesday so that we can go figure out the colors and everything that we are going to pain the kids’ rooms and hers.  I am really excited about that.  I just wish that I had help when I’m doing my things…and then again I think I am too particular and definitely know what I want, but just to be offered some help would be nice.  The help that I needed when I was all on my own moving all of my shit to another town.  Everyone just kind of disappears.

 Anyway.  I’m starting to get really impatient about my future plans as far as moving goes.  I keep making this house more and more cozy…but it’s so hard to spend the money on the things I know it needs when I don’t think I am going to be here for much longer.  I am just so influenced by my surroundings that it calms me to have a beautiful space that feels like mine.  I guess I’m saying that because everything, aside from these kitchen stools, that I’ve bought has been for my room.  I ordered some art prints for my walls to get the generic, mass-produced “painting” that my roommate loaned me off the wall.  It’s of Ethel Cain…one of my favorite bands.  I bought the frames to go with them to keep it from looking too much like my old college dorm room, haha.  Then I bought 2 big LED light stick things to put in the darker corners of the room for some mood lighting at night.  Trying to keep it cozy…and grown-up…annnnd all me.

I can say that since moving here, my room and the house in general has stayed so clean.  I think a lot of it has to do with all of the storage that I bought…and also just feeling so good about how things look right now.  My husband and I have been thinking so long about remodeling our house that I didn’t really have anywhere to put my creative energy…and that really is a hard “stuck” feeling.  Even though I don’t plan on being here long…everything in my room now is able to fit anywhere.  I didn’t buy anything as a one-off.  Everything goes together, I have the full bedroom set, even if it can’t all fit in there now.

I just caught myself thinking I’m crazy talking about all of this like it’s some big deal…but for me it is.  I kind of obsess about making cozy spaces.  I really need to revamp the salon…but until I move, I am not going to worry about putting any more money into it than I already have.  It’s cute enough for the moment…and functioning well to make me money.

We are suppose to be getting new neighbors…I’ve seen them twice, but they haven’t started moving anything in yet.  They look to be about my roommates age and they don’t seem to have any kids.  I think I mentioned it before, but they do have a small dog and I’m just really hoping my roommates talk can calm her shit so that they get along and she doesn’t act like a psycho.  Which reminds me, the night before last, my roommate forgot her dog or just left her outside because I woke up at midnight to her dog clawing all along my back window, the kitchen window, the backdoor (it’s now scratched to total shit), and barking her head off.  I was sooo pissed off…and I’m sure the rest of the neighborhood was, too.  I don’t know how long she was out there before I woke up.

My roommate will be gone next week…she has no idea what she’s going to do with her dog yet.  She’ll be gone for 8 days.  I don’t want to be the one that has to worry about taking care of her dog.  It’s why I don’t have a dog with me here…I don’t want to be strapped to my house to let her in and out and pick her up from day care and all of the things.  I am suppose to help my sister move all of next week…I have a wedding on two days next weekend…like I really don’t need that stress.  I don’t know what she’s going to do…but I really, really don’t want to have to be the one to worry about it.

I need to get back into a better routine.  I have been thinking about starting with a trainer.  I don’t want to have to drive 30 minutes to where my sister is starting to workout all of the time though and I do need someone as my accountability partner.  When I was working with a trainer in Canada, I felt so good, so healthy…why is it so hard to stick to those things but so easy to fall back on the unhealthy habits?!

I’ll try starting with returning to my Miracle Mornings.  Waking up at 5 – guided meditation, reading, writing, visualizing, affirming…and exercising.

My roommate and I have an appointment at the gym tomorrow.  I don’t want to sign sort of contract or commitment longer than a month due to the possibility of moving soon…but I definitely need to get back to moving my body regularly.

I’m just rambling at this point…hopefully I’ll come back to this in the morning and start off on the right foot.  I’m going to work on some French right now.  I also need to start doing more creative things.  I feel like I write about doing that all of the time.  I just need to set myself up to be successful in doing that because it always makes such a huge difference for my mental health, too.