The sentence

Some news from the trial on which Doctor Livio is defending that monster of pedophile. I am following every details of it in the newspaper every single day. Astonished and hurt; hurt because I sympathize with the many victims, even if I never was a victim of a pedophile or of an otherwise terrible sexual abuse, and astonished because I thought that Doctor Livio was a man of moral integrity and great honesty. 

The Public Prosecutor asked for fourteen years’ imprisonment (so no psychiatric hospital or such), which seems too less to me but would be, here in Switzerland, a very severe sentence. If you think that murderers can get away with maybe six or seven years’ imprisonment, sentencing a pedophile – whom  is considered, as absurd as it may be, "less damaging" than a murderer – to fourteen years’ imprisonment would maybe serve as an example. Since the Public Prosecutor stressed the fact that the accused did not even ask for the victims’ forgiveness, yesterday that loathsome monster, well instructed by his lawyer, filled this gap and apologized for what he did. Does he then recognized he did something wrong? He even used to keep a diary, in which he kept record of the young boys he went with, describing if they were pleasant or reluctant, nice to have sex with or less appetizing. Since this diary was kept secret, he must have been very well aware of the fact that he was doing something wrong. 

The defendant spoke yesterday. She asked for six years’ imprisonment, stressing the fact that the accused did what he did but there was no coercion. Oh, really? Did the victims let that monster abuse them willingly? I think that those poor victims might cry out for vengeance. Of course, she is the defendant and has to find quibbles to reduce the sentence as much as possible, but this is a dirty lie. That monster took innocent young people, in their adolescence, teenagers, and since he was a very highly regarded sport teacher, not only: he was even selector for the swiss national swimming team, he was in a position of power. He would promise the young people a career, success, even taking part to the Olympic Games, and then practicing "sport massages". I let your imagination free to think which body parts he used to massage. The young people would feel dirty and guilty, and would not tell anybody what was happening. Nowadays they are men; adults, some with a family and maybe children, but apparently still at the present time some of them burst into tears as they spoke of the abuse. In the newspaper it is reported that one of the victims, at the very moment in which the defendant said that there was no coercion, stood up, clapped and said "Congratulations!". Then, he left the room. 

The sentence was spoken today. The monster was sentenced to eleven years’ imprisonment. The judge accepted most of the Public Prosecutor’s arguments, and mostly rejected Doctor Livio’s psychiatrist’s report. Thank God. I am nobody to judge a criminal, I am a sinner myself and a thought criminal as a principle, but I was afraid that that pedophile might get away with a couple of years’ "imprisonment" in a psychiatric hospital. I don’t think he will have an easy life in prison. Even inmates have their rules. A children’s rapist is surely not really highly regarded. 

And now, everything which is left for me is my disappointment in Doctor Livio. This case was a severe failure for him, almost none of his points of view on that criminal was taken into consideration. He is surely not accustomed to being contradicted in such a massive way. Here in the province, Doctor Livio is the psychiatrist. I know, I have the privilege to be in therapy with the best psychiatrist of the province and maybe I should ignore the fact that he took the part of a monster and go on as if nothing happened. But I think I’m not that kind of person. I will speak with him about it. Just out of curiosity, if not out of anger or sadness. Maybe the accused was an old friend of him? Or he did a favor to someone? Maybe it is not possible to become powerful without being involved in suspicious business, and Doctor Livio is actually very powerful. I always thought he was a man of Order, Truth and Justice, and I am nobody to say it is not so, but for the first time since I know him I question his moral integrity. This is the reason why I’m going to discuss this issue with him. Just ask him why he did all this. 

I have shocking news about Paolo, but I will report them in my next entry. Now I’m off reading my friends. Owing to everything which happens around me at the moment, I’m sick of society, I’m sick of myself repeating it over and over again, but I know that Someone is listening.