Forgive me

I could speak with Doctor Livio thoroughly about his position in the whole case he was involved in. I regret, truly regret all the doubts I had about him. I regret questioning his morality and honesty, I regret thinking he might just be a vain person looking for glory or doing all he was doing for the sake of money… I have been such an idiot. I never truly believed Doctor Livio was a vain person or after money, I feared it might be so and I had made a mistake for five long years in "judging" him as a therapist and as a person. I feared I was mistaken in thinking he is the wonderful person he actually is. 

 

His slanderer is just a poor professional, envious of a colleague who is better than him, thus "insulting" – without directly insulting, just being offensive and ironic at the same time. This is the kind of person I hope I will never meet on my way. 

 

If Doctor Livio ever read this diary, and came to this entry, the only thing I would like to say would be: please, forgive me. Forgive my being so blind and superficial, forgive my emotional impulsive reactions which I did not scan with my brain before talking (well, writing), forgive my doubts, forgive my lacking faith in your professionalism. Forgive me for saying I did not care, because if there is a person I care about, this is you. 

 

Forgive me.  

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August 27, 2013

…im sure he would. xx,

August 27, 2013

I’m sure you wouldn’t even need to be forgiven, my dear! It’s okay to make speculations when something is confusing, right? 🙂 ~~~>

August 27, 2013

It is so hard to seek truth before emotion and especially if our lives twists and turns have brought us to a place of fear and uncertainity. I KNOW he’d forgive you, and I’m so happy that you can rest in a place of peace about this.

RYN: I haven’t heard anything from Beckie. I am assuming that everything is ok. I would assume that she would write something on her diary if she was to be evacuated because of the fire. Hope you have a good week. Take care.

August 27, 2013

I think you were right in being confused and needing an explanation. There’s no shame in that. And a lot of the time it’s natural to believe something based on what we do know. As more knowledge comes our way, we can refine our beliefs. And I feel that’s what you have done. 🙂 Nothing wrong with it! And I have no doubt that Dr Livio knows you are on his side.

August 27, 2013

ryn: thankyou big sis. I am happily going along with my work^^ and I care about you too. love lil sis. xo

you do not need to be forgiven big sis, it is perfectly natural. I think it’s healthy to question your psych. they are working for you!

August 28, 2013

I agree with all of the above…I also encourage you to put the whole thing in the past as the client on hand was a pedophile which can a lot of emotion to the table when it comes down to public safety and morality in general. Ancient history….hit the delete button…

August 30, 2013

One never knows for sure, hon. It’s okay! I’m glad he’s the good guy in all this. ryn: The Passover “meeting”: Seder. I hope it was a happy experience for you. My mom has gotten more laid back with ours over the years. We now have toys of the plagues and Play Mobile Egyptians. I found wind-up locusts one year. 🙂 Yep – I get yelled at to pay attention! <:3~

August 30, 2013

It seems we forget that we go through inner thoughts as well as outer “lessons” to experience things (in my case, for G-d). You have found love, peace and joy. I am so happy for you, Sister. xo