Waste

 Song: Imagine Dragons _ It’s Timehttp://www.youtube.com/watch

I just heard that the star from Glee died.  I feel sad for him, and her ( his co-star) they seemed to have it all. And now it’s been taken away. 

It’s also sad to hear about that man who got off for shooting that young boy, just because he "looked" dodgy.  

So much pain in the world because of guns and drugs. Such a waste. 

Scary to think that at any moment, at any time.. your life could be over.  Because of something you decide’s to do or something some else decides.

There are times I think about death perhaps as a great wait to just let it all end, the crap that goes on my life.  

Then there are times when I am so scared to think about death.  That I could leave this world without having loved someone, without having done something for the world, without having had a family a child to love more then I could image.  And without having said things to people that I should of. 

I leave behind just a group of friends

Life goes on for them.. there are other more important people, most of them have boyfriends, girlfriends, Husbands, wives, and Children.

My Family- my mother.. but the rest of my family I wouldn’t say know me.  It’s been 10 years since I have lived in New Zealand. and in the last year I have stopped going to home completely. 

Where as before I may of gone home upwards 6 times a year.  This year I have been home once, at that was only at new years.

My Friends Nikki and Kate have been single for a month.. and both of them have already hooked up, flirted and kissed guys.  I know both of them will not be on the market for long?  Yet here I am.. 5 years.

HELP ME.. help me change Someone, Why am I like this. Who am I looking for?