unleashed my inner crazy person/stalker.

SONG: Seal Crazy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Fc67yQsPqQ

it’s official, I have unleashed my inner crazy person/stalker.

Have no been able to stop thinking about Troy for days – I have done something that I have never done in my life.

I stood outside his work till he finished hoping to accidentally bump into him. Of course I didn’t. I wanted him to see me, invite me to dinner and him to confess that everything I was feeling he was feeling to. I wanted us to have amazing sex in a hotel room. I wanted it to be like movie.

So reality needs to creep back into my life. I need to tell these things to myself.

1) He was so drunk it was just I was in front of him.

2) It was just ‘fooling around’ it didn’t mean anything

3) It’s me- I’m FAT.. = not attractive

4) BIG MISTAKE he doesn’t like me like that

5) The scandal it would open up

6) what do I think would happen? We would fall in love?

I just need to step back from it – I need to be cool. ( I have lost my mind) normally I keep my crazy to minimal.