Thinking about it!
Song: Love song: The Cure. http://www.youtube.com/watch
My Birthday was on Thursday I had a party last night.
A few of my "friends" who said they would turn up… didn’t…. not to worry the important one’s showed up.
My friend Dan and Jo ( a couple) are moving back to London. They have been asking me to come back with them. Dan tells me that Sydney is not the place for me. And that if I want to find a man, I should move to London.. …. He said wake up Claire, all your friends are moving on and your just being left behind.
I don’t know I am thinking about it more and more.. and then I think to myself.. maybe.. just maybe.. when I go back in July I should just move to the UK then?
Do I move to London.. again? Or am I just running away. I have been in Sydney since Jan 09. My life has stood still. Not getting better not getting worse.. nothing…the same. meanwhile, every single person’s life moves one.
I used to be allot braver then this, I used to be able to just pack up and leave. But the thought of starting over again.. and for it not to work. Scares the crap out of me.
The only time I will post a photo… 🙂 so here it is…..I am trying to brave photo from last night just my cool eyelash’s 
Starting over is definetely not an easy thing to do. I think when you are younger it comes more natural. There is something about getting older that makes most people more reluctant. I’ve definetely noticed that quality in myself. When i was younger, i was carefree and didn’t mind picking up and leaving. I’m thinking perhaps it’s the feeling like time is running out. As we age, our internal clocktells us that we need to figure out something( sort of a last chance at happiness) soon or else…In reality, i know it’s never too late to start over, and that there is always hope for better days ahead. Even armed with this knowledge, it’s still a constant internal struggle to have faith in new beginnings
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