The wish, I wanted

 

 

SONG: RENT SOUND TRACK – Santa Fe: youtu.be/PgTOEp57QJ4

 

I know it’s been a while since I have written.

Loads has been going on – but its almost like I can’t bring myself to talk, think or even write about it. I just want to ignore it, hope’s it goes away.

I have ended 4 Friendships each I have known since I was 16

I have slept with Troy ‘again’

Lost another job and got another.

4 babies have been born, 6 people have gotten engaged… and 2 people are pregnant

I wish I was some where else – but at the same time I don’t

But the biggest thing to come through is that I got invited to interview for the Green card Lottery. Something I have been wishing for 20 years. Yet I can’t bring myself to fill out the paper work.

WHY? – whats wrong with that.. the world has given me this amazing chance to have my dream…but I can’t do it?

That means something