Harden My Heart

Song: QuarterFlash Harden My Heart http://www.youtube.com/watch

I was made redundant yesterday, it’s ok, I got a rather large payout. And have already got a few jobs lined up.. so I am not worried.

I was shocked that they would pay be out 4 weeks. I have only been with them since January. But it just means that this another job that bites the dust….

So I have been texting a boy.. ok.. so he’s from the Internet. Eharmony, which may I add every Match is like an underwear model, NONE of them were, normal or average. It was if every underwear model in Sydney had signed up and was matched with me.

Anyways, Chris.. and I have been talking for about a week now. He hasn’t called me.. when I say talking, week one was emails, 5 days after that he and I facebooked, and now we are text.

I’m doing that thing again, he seems nice. But this is what I do. I don’t even let myself get involved with someone if I don’t think that it’s going to turn into something more.

After the break up with Mark, which destroyed me. I can’t bare go down a path where I know it will end in me being even more heartbroken.

Sounds crazy I know. and it’s not like I have a list. It more they just need to have these things. other wise what is the point.

– they need to have a good job

– they need to be taller then me.. 6’0 would be nice.

– they need to be well built like a rugby guy or a line backer. Stocky

– he has to make me laugh

That’s it that’s all I require….. a couple of other things that I think I would like, but I can’t have everything. I would like him to be able to drive, I would like him to have his own friends, and I would like him to have a great family.

You would think I am asking for a Greek Adonis or something.

Anyways Chris…. so from what I get over Text message and seen on facebook, He’s well ok. He does have a good job, he is over 6′ foot. He’s stocky.. he has friends. – He doesn’t drive he said due to an some rugby accident and him blowing out his knee.. I’m not sure

Whatever happens I can help but protect my heart…