I could go crazy on you..

I’m going out of my mind.

I’m so bored. Every time I think of something that used to be fun, (reading a book/ doing a puzzle/ going for a walk along the bush path out the back/ listening to music and singing/ dancing/ rearranging furniture, whatever.) I get to almost starting it and realise it just doesn’t excite me at all. It’s so frustrating. Josh came over a few days, after I stayed at his place a couple nights, and pretty much all we did was sit around watching movies and stargate. At one point in richmond we went for a walk, and when his mum dropped us off in the village in Lindisfarne we walked to my house. And that’s pretty much it. Dunno if it was something we ate, but the other night we both got pretty sick. Which is why I didn’t come to Nessa’s party. But that also meant that even when we wanted to get out of the house, we pretty much couldn’t.

I’m pretty certain that if i don;t do something soon my brain will explode out of frustration, but I have no money because my time sheets got mucked up at work. And even though I have all this energy, I just can’t do anything with it. for instance, my hair’s gone kinda mouldy and gross now, and I know I should fix the colour so it’s not rank, and looks nice when mum get;s home tonight and I work on the weekend, but really in general I can;t see the point because in 3 weeks I’ll have to do it over again. What frustrates me even more is the fact that I know it’s probably going to continue this way until school goes back, simply because I have nothing to do.

Anyway, once I get my work times for next week I was thinking about re-organising a definite day for my shopping day out and lunch plans, if you girls are interested. And perhaps it could maybe culminate in a girls night at my place, seeing as i’ve got this big bedroom and stuff now. Do you think it’s a cool idea? Let me know.