Goodbyyye, nice to know you.

[Listening To: nice to know you // INCUBUS]

Dad moved out on.. Tuesday night? yeah, Tuesday.

Surprisingly, it hasn’t affected me much at all. I was at LoveFest when he called me to tell me, so I was a bit drunk, and upset, but now I’ve come back home (Wednesday was the first night I spent at home since.. the Tuesday the week before. Obviously, I’d spent a little time at home during the days catching up on sleep and stuff, but parents aren’t there during the day.) anyway, now I’ve come back home things are getting better. Mum and I had a chat, about everything. how I was feeling, how she was feeling. I explained how her messages the other night hurt me, and what I’d been going through since dad told me, on top of all the John stuff and school stuff and general mind stuff. She apologised, and she meant it. I understand she’s been under a lot of stress lately, too. I told her about what dad told me, and that got her angry. About as angry as I am for it, actually. but yeah. So. Alex and I are living with mum. Mum and I are good now, which is excellent. Dad is living with a friend at the moment, and will start looking for a 2 bedroom unit somewhere on the Eastern shore on the weekend. I had a chat to mum about the house and she agrees it would be a smarter idea for us to find a smaller place somewhere and rent. Which is harsh on her, because she’s worked so hard all her life to own our house, and now she has to give it up. But, it will be a lot easier, money-wise.

Dad came over yesterday because it was his birthday, and ended up buying ME things. For instance, I got his phone which is really cool and used to be mums, $30 credit, chinese takeaway for tea, and then he took Alex and I out to a movie.
Then.. he asked if i want to move in with him.

Oh, so that’s why you were being nice to me?

And I said.. No. You see, what i really need right now is some stability. What I need right now is a parent who’s going to act like that: a parent. I don’t need another friend. And seeing as Mum and I are getting along, and properly communicating and such, I’m living with her.

And hey.. in 2 weeks mum is going to Brisbane for 2 weeks.. party on the weekend when she goes away. Which will be ok as long as I get some homework done. Especially because people who come to parties have licenses, and I don’t. and then, two weeks after she comes back she goes to Launceston for a weekend for my cousin’s wedding. And  then, two weeks after that, she goes to Melbourne for a few days (after school has finished and exams are over) for her operations.

But yeah. After everything these past few weeks, I’ve reached this nice, inner-peace-and-calm thing, and I’m quite happy.

Today, Mum told me that she hadn’t seen me smile in months, and she was glad to see me smiling again.

oops! better get ready.. I’m meeting Hamish in an hour 😉