everyone else is doing it, why can’t we?

[Listening To:the cranberries ]

so.

last night was my last night out as an underage person.

Luke and I went to the Welcome Stranger, where we met up with Dave and his new girl Erin, who’s pretty cool. We played a few games of pool. Obviously, when we played couples, I made Luke lose because I’m shithouse and Erin is pretty pro. Then Dave and Luke decided that they’d play each other, and Erin wanted to smoke her last cigarette, so I went outside to keep her company. Got outside, and her cigarette was broken lol. She was devo, because it was her last one. At that moment, a pretty drunk middle aged man came outside to smoke. He saw that it was broken, and offered to fix it for her with his rolling papers, which was nice of him. Had a bit of a chat, and he’s from launceston. He wanted to know if we thought our boys woul be cool if he played a game of pool with them. Thought that was okay, and at that point the boys actually came to find us, so we introduced them to Andrew, the guy. On the way to the tables, Andrew bought us all a drink. I had cider. We all thought he was pretty awesome. After the game had finished, he disappeared. We decided to head to the Waratah, because games there are only a dollar, rather than the two dollars at the Welcome Stranger, and we were all running out of money. As we were about to pack up, Andrew comes back in with a tray. Full of drinks. He bought us another round so he could play pool with us again!

We were all pretty stoked, although we felt obliged to point out that he really didn’t have to buy us drinks to be able to play pool with us. He said he did, and not to worry, because the government was paying for it all anyway, he’d get it back in travel expenses because he works for the government. So thanks taxpayers, I got drunk with your money last night =D lol.

After that we went to the Waratah. Luke bought three long necks on the way in, so we got glasses and drank those and played pool.

There was a middle aged woman hitting on Dave, calling him cutie in patting him on the ass. She had a daughter who kept staring at Luke all night. Erin and I kept getting death glares from these two. The mother had a husband, the daughter a boyfriend.. and the girl was my age, 17, and in year 12 at EC. As she was leaving she got flirty with Luke and like ‘oh! you’re in my psych class..’ but I was in the toilet at the time, so i missed out on the best opportunity for kicking her in the shins =[

The mother said she was looking at dave because they were looking for a boy for her daughter (perhaps she hated the current boyfriend) but when we told her that Dave is twentysomething she said ‘oh, never mind then’ but continued to hit on him. It was pretty creepy. Oh! And Erin and I had a game of pool vs each other, and she taught me lots of things and better control and stuff, so I’m not quite as shit now =]

on the bus home at ten past midnight, Luke and I had a bit of a convo about how I was feeling a little insecure about that message Kiwi sent him the other night. And he said something, I can;t remember what, and something else about me always coming first. But then he said ‘but if it turns out that Kiwi does have cancer, I couldn’t be with you, because I’d need to be with her, by her bed every night, so I could make her happy’ or something along those lines. At that point it was time to get off the bus on the highway, and being absolutely shitfaced, I chucked it. Had a skitz. We both kiind of did, only i went a little crazy, and Luke went a little crazy in a trying desperately to get me to believe him when he told me he loved me. I don’t remember much of this point except a few things, like he kept trying to hug me and I’d freak out and thrash about because i didn’t want him to touch me. He almost cried on several occasions because he realised I no longer trusted him, although I didn’t even have to say it. He kept repeating over and over again that I could trust him, I wouldn’t get hurt and he’s "not Josh.". He tried to restrain me so I’d stop flailing my arms about so I dropped to the ground and huddled up in a ball and swore at him lots. This whole time we were on the highway outside the shops, and half of the time we were in the middle of the highway. And a million taxis kept doing blocks around us and slowing down as they went past. One even pulled over on the other side of the road and waited, as though it hoped we’d get in.

Eventually I ran out of crazy and just started bawling my eyes out. And even though I’d been a crazy drunk bitch luke picked me up off the middle of the road and gave me a massive hug, and we fixed it and walked home.