Entry 407 *e

I had a really long post I was gonna do but I’ll save it for when I have a different mood. For now, it’s just venting.

My current relationship "status", I guess you would call it, is that I have a girlfriend. At the start of things, we were pretty cool, cause we’d be on Skype all the time. We used to go to sleep with it on and watch stuff on Netflix together. This is all used to, because we sure as heck don’t do that anymore.

I was fine at first with us not being on Skype as much. Y’know, having space and time to do whatever. But it became what it is now where I don’t hear from her all day… for days. That’s where I draw the line at, as there are no excuses. It pisses me off when people use that excuse considering I have worked jobs before.

They give a thing called… breaks and lunchtime. You also have time before and after work or even when laying down to sleep. Her job is babysitting her friend’s kids and then does online college work. I get that she’s busy with those things, but 24hrs busy? No.

We’ve barely spoken since before Christmas. We have had a very few exchanges now and then, but seriously? No texts, no FB messages, no Skype? I’ve messaged her but no responses.

I’m at that point of calling it off. She broke up with her bf back in 2011 because he didn’t talk to her much and yet, she’s doing the same.

I’m sick of it. I’ve recently decided to go to Japan and in the midst of all the planning, I haven’t even included her, because she’s not said a damn word to me.

Rather than messaging her what I think or feel, I’ll wait till she decides to remember we’re suppose to be a couple and messages me. I’ll likely just straight up ask her, does she even see us as an actual couple anymore.

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Edit:

Fukkit. I texted her about 10 minutes ago, asking where is she that she can’t talk to me. I thought about waiting for her to say something but I’m getting more annoyed by it because this is unacceptable for someone that left her boyfriend over lack of communication.

I’m sick of these silent games and thought we were well past this. Maybe it’s myself that is not ready for relationships? I like the feeling of having someone, but at the same time… it’s not like I really need that. I’m okay with being alone because it’s not headache inducing. And no girls are really girlfriend level to me.

Even the one I’m with, she’s nice and adore her personality when she’s actually around. But then she does this bullshit so much and I’m sick of it. What’s the point of having a relationship if you can’t talk to the other person?
 

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