Nah, Not Bi-Polar

Nah, I’m not bi-polar.  I think I was just tired because I’m
pretty darn chipper this morning (though still on the edge of my seat
becaue today is the big day).  I can’t stop wondering how this
pregnancy test will turn out.  Are Jacob and Esau still alive? (In
case you missed it, that is what I dubbed the two little embryos that
my daughter had transferred in her IVF procedure.)

The weather is beautiful here right now .  It was gorgeous
yesterday too… 69 degrees yesterday and should get up to lower 70s
today.  They say we might get some nasty thunderstorms this
afternoon but right now the sun is BURSTING through the sky and into my
living room, greeting me, personally, this morning!  Is this a
good sign? It has to be.

Did I mention yesterday that I’m starting at Starbucks next
Tuesday?  I’m too lazy to go back and look so if I did, forgive me
for being redundant.  I’m going in next Tuesday evening to fill
out the paperwork and do a little re-training and then we’ll get my
regular schedule straightened out as well.  I’m excited but a
little nervous too.  I hope I’m not “biting off more than I can
chew.”  I already seem to not be getting as much sleep as I should
be.  I have been doing a LOT of writing, not just here, but also
some fiction. 

It has been a long time since I had some good fiction come pouring out,
probably since I used to write the erotica, but this is totally
different and I am really excited about it.  I want to go with it
as long as God grants me the muse as I’m finding it satisfying and also
emotionally stabilizing.  We’ll see what happens.  I’m sure
I’ll share some of it before long.

Anyway, you’ll hear from me one way or another before the end of this
day… either I will be devastated and depressed but not nearly as
devastated and depressed as Hopeful1, my wonderful and adored daughter,
or I will be walking on clouds (but only carefully, as she has
miscarried two so the positive test will only be another step in this
hopeful journey).

Please PLEASE continue to pray for these babies and for my daughter.