“It’s Complicated”

The above was my relationship status on Facebook for quite a while. Finally, I just left that status blank because of all the questions of why it was complicated in the first place.

I can’t remember if I told you all this or not. I wrote to Justin, breaking up with him.

My reasons are fuzzy, to say the least. I’m still madly in love with him, whether I admit it openly or not. It’s just that, as a Christian, I need to look for a man who will be completely loyal to me. If he cheats once, no matter what the reason is, he’s not going to change.

I had to move on. I pray that I’ve done the right thing, the strong thing, the wise thing. Love is so complicated sometimes I just want to scream.

Now I send this question into the cyber-void: Have I done the right thing?

Forget about the guy I kept mentioning over my past 2 entries. Just forget it.

I have no desire to be in love at the moment.