YOU’RE SO CLOSE

You’re so close, I withdraw from your care

You don’t have to like me, it isn’t fair

I’ve come to depend on you oh-so-much

You’re a therapist, not a crutch

But I’ll use you for my own needs

and stew when you go

And convince myself to hate you, to erase all this woe

I want you too much, need you too deep

I can’t draw a line between want and need

Need as a fulfillment, want as a pleasure

Learn to understand, and learn to treasure

What I have, and what you give

Not set expectations that are impossible to live

up to, into, an emotional blast

One day soon, I’ll let this pass

I really hope this therapy is the cure

I know I have to work it too

Please tell me what to do

I guess I’m not healthy, I guess it’s not time

I can’t even make up my own mind

Hopefully with knowledge, hopefully with time

I’ll be able to say, "My life is really mine."