WHY I GO

I wanted a father for so many years

but you stayed away, and confirmed my fears

that everyone I loved would eventually go

and never come back, and this I know

To be true, to be life,

to be the way it goes oh-well

I don’t care, I really don’t

I’m perfectly happy being alone

Why let down my walls, and let you see me

when you could see; what I should be;

If I had led a normal life, if I had been treated right

If I was loved, if I was cherished

If I had felt, that should I perish;

that someone would care, that someone would know

the "who" I was, and why I "go";

What the meaning of my life was

what it meant, and what I did

How I tried to love and live

I tried to survive, live and love

but who can "feel", when you’re always shoved

In a corner, in a room,

In a place called doom

Doom for eternity, doom cause you were born

You never did nothing, but you were scorned

Cheated, Hated, Pushed Away

To wonder about your life, every day

And wonder, and wonder, and wonder some more

What in the hell is this life for?

Can it be wonderful? Can it be great?

Can I bury the outrageous hate?

And anger, and rage, and miserableness

and live and love, and not second-guess

People’s motives, people’s kindness

Accept the world without my blindness.