the dragon mother

that’s about how i feel right now. i want to talk, but i really don’t have much to say.

i wrote an essay about my mother this morning, and i believe that thinking about the past has brought me down again. i should know better, but i don’t.

i really would love to talk to my mother, but again, it’s that mother in my mind, not my actual mother. if my mother was to welcome me into her open arms right now, i would give her a hug, all the while looking behind me to see if she is going to stab me.

eventually i will write an entry about what my childhood was like, but not today.

~Kat