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Spent my whole morning at the Nursing Home, sitting through an inservice that I have to do once a year. It was all the same old stuff, and I zoned out through most of it. But did have to see the director of nursing so that I could get my TB test. She said "you hate needles?" I said "yes" she said "if you can stand to get a tattoo on your wrist, how come you can’t stand needles?" I had no answer.

Anyway, I’m working this weekend (haven’t worked in maybe 2½ months). Friday midnight-6 am, and Saturday midnight-6 am. I’m glad, I really have missed working. So many new people (staff) there, and so many new people (residents) there.

I also have my yearly evaluation sometime next month. Not so worried about it, I go and do my job and come home. My highest rank last year was "gets along well with residents". I don’t think I racked up enough alzheimer’s hours, so, I may get penalized for that.

Just put butter on the ears of corn, and wrapped them up in tinfoil, so that K can cook them outside on the grill. Yum. He also bought some of pork with the same sauce as the chinese boneless spare-ribs. Have no idea what the stuff is called.

We went down to Bangor to see Aaron at his grandfather’s house on Tuesday night. We took him down his two bicycles. He TOTALLY ignored me while I was there, didn’t even talk to me. My father-in-law froze me out with his back to me. I was NOT feeling the love. I was upset about it, and I started to cry. Kev saw the tears in my eyes, and moved the conversation to somewhere else. I didn’t want either Aaron or my father-in-law to see my cry, so I hopped in the truck and pretended to play with my BlackBerry.

When K asked Aaron if he was going to say goodbye to me and his brother, he opened the truck door and flew an abrupt "bye" my way. I had my head down (tears), so I guess the goodbye that I said was muffled.

K said that Aaron said "that went well" and K said to him "what did you expect, you’ve been ignoring them the whole time we’ve been down here visiting".

K held my hand and kissed it while I looked out the passenger window and tried to not make any noise while I cried. Then I made one remark to K. I said that if Aaron continues to burn this bridge, there will not be a way back over it.

Tomorrow I have my usual every other Friday visit with R. Maybe he can help me sort things out in my head. IF I can find him. His office is getting a new air-conditioning system, so he has "re-located" to the hospital in Dover. And I lost the map that he gave me that showed which door to go in. Oops.

~kat