Sparkly………..Glittery

The challenge of the night is going to be writing my feelings while being totally coherent and sticking to the subject. No rants, no tangents, just my thoughts straight up.

Today was an okay day. Still feeling a little down, but tried to bring myself up a little. Used a new body wash (olay ribbons), and washed my hair with green tea shampoo & chamomile conditioner. Used smelly-good lotion all over my body, and even sprayed on some Faith Hil Parfum. I love the smell, it’s soft and girly. Then I put on this little sheath dress that I have, to feel light and breezy. I may paint my fingernails and my toenails tomorrow. 🙂

Just found out that my 16 year old will be coming back from staying with his grandfather tomorrow. Joy. But then my 13 year old will be going to his house for the remainder of the week, so it sort of off-sets the dread of having oldest one home. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son, I really do. But dealing with him in the past few months has been strenuous at the very least. My 16 year old A, he and I are continually at each other’s throats lately. He has ADHD and a mood disorder not other wise specified. He has been to the hospital because of suicidal ideations. I think that he has undiagnosed bipolar disorder, but have been told many, many times that he is too young to make a diagnosis like that. He refuses to take medication, and I just can’t see me shoving them down his throat. So what do we do about it? We deal with it the best that we can, try to be understanding, but at the same time want to bop him upside the head for being so 16!!!!

He and I? We are so much alike–I’m surprised that I don’t see his reflection staring back at me when I look in the mirror. My husband says that we are like "two peas in pod". I can’t really say if that I take pride in that, or that I resent that.

Well, time to start packing it in….I’ll have more on this topic of conversation tomorrow.

~Kat