October 3, 1992

7:25 am

It’s early, I know – fancy that! Me up early. K. brought home a dog yesterday – a black lab/mix – golden retriever – she’s 2 years old, and her name is Kizzy. she’s a wonderful dog, she listens when you speak, she’s obedient, she rides well in the car and she is very loveable. Have we struck gold with this one? K. and Ed are going to get rid of Sandy today at the dog pound, but I don’t want to be around – I’m kinda gonna miss the bitch!

October 5, 1992

12:12 am

I guess it’s tomorrow! Well, I guess we’re not expecting a baby Duren. Bummer. I started my "menses" today. O-well. I spent a little time at Dawna’s house after work – we had dinner, and made plans for Friday night – I’m gonna be spending Fri. night at Dawna’s house. I went and got my hair cut on the 3rd, I just went down to "Regis" hair salon in Bangor, and I got a short bob. I liked it alot, but I was a little worried about how K. was going to react to the fact that I didn’t bother to tell him and it IS REALLY short. but he was okay about it, and tonight he told me that he really liked it, it made me look more my age. I’m not so panicky about the wedding now – I planned out a whole budget right up until a week before the wedding – and I feel more in control. It’ll all be fine!!

October 6, 1992

10:00 pm

Well, good things happened today, AND bad things happened today. First, the bad thing: "Smokey" died. She was really young, only a couple of weeks, and today we were gonna take her to the vet, but while we were in Bangor, she died. I cried for her. No more new animals! Ok, good news: I don’t have to spend $140 on the wedding dress. Leann leant me her wedding dress and veil. I tried her dress on today, and it fit fine (except for the bust, which Judie can take in.) I’m grateful that they are going to help me like this, but I was kinda looking forward to having my own dress. But hell, I’ll have my memories and pictures – right? Besides, the dress looked really good and beggars can’t be choosers. Precisely.