LONELY AND SCARED

I’m so confused, lonely and scared

at a complete loss for words

my heart is all bunched-up tight

little by little it drops it’s loads

but where am I going? where can I be?

won’t somebody please help me

normal, normal, taunt and tease

anger puts my life at ease

it’s a way to run, it’s a way to hide

it’s a way to lock these feelings inside

the little girl inside me cries

the big me thinks she’s weak

I fret and stew and worry and wonder

and then I try to seek

a way to make myself forget

a way to hide the pain

someone to push my anger on, and then feel like myself again

I have no softness, have no heart

I don’t care either way

my resolve is strong, my walls are thick

my shields stand in the way.