June 20, 1993

June 20, 1993

7:03 pm

Well, last night Kevin & I went to Rick & Julie’s wedding. Afterwards, I was really depressed, and I couldn’t figure out why – it carried over into this morning. Yes, Julie made a beautiful bride, and it was a nice ceremony, but for $1000 – $2000 cheaper, they could have had the same thing without all of the "to-do". I loved Kevin & my ceremony, and we are happy, so I couldn’t figure out why I was depressed. I love Kevin for trying to draw me out of it, and just simply being here for me. Still don’t know what caused the sadness, but I feel better now. We’re getting mounds of medical bills, and I feel really bad because the burden of MY well-being is falling on Kevin’s shoulder. I really wish I had a job so that I could help with my bills. We’re still waiting on word from DHS to see if I get approved for Medicaid. I got a letter in the mail saying that we should get a yes or no answer for DHS by Wednesday, so if I don’t hear anything by Thursday I’m going into DHS with a bunch of K’s paycheck stubs. I’m gonna go crazy worrying about the damn medical bills! They wouldn’t throw a pregnant woman in jail would they? K told me not to worry myself about them, because he would take care of them – ho hum.