INFINATELY:

10:39 am

Webber came and "repossessed" our propane tank this a.m. – for non-payment. They wouldn’t accept a payment plan when I called, so Kevin told them to take it! Luckily we had a tank (spare) and the delivery man gave Kevin the part we were missing, so we still have hot water.

8:57 pm

Well, West Penobscot disconnected our telephone.

If the trailor starts rolling while we are sleeping, I’ll know they are repossessing THAT TOO! Oh woe is me! POOR PITIFUL US.

I made some dice out of plastic canvas, and I sold one today at the video store, and 2 more people have ordered one.

If I forget to put it in Aaron’s baby book, he stood up against the crib & bathtub today.

June 8, 1994

11:45 am

I want to get a tatoo! Either a butterfly on my left breast, or a unicorn on my right ankle. Kev isn’t extremely happy about the idea, but…..it’s my body, right? I’m not totally decided yet.

7:46 pm

I’m kinda in a slump right now – with myself, bills!, life, basically EVERYTHING. I want to write, but I really don’t FEEL like it – I’d stick a tape in, but I wouldn’t be able to finish it, and I just hate it when that happens! "Legs of Steel" tonite. C/G facial masque, too. I feel like a nice hot bath/maybe bubbles. (Right, as if I can scrub away these feelings!!) I think that I am hungry, too. I also feel a tickling in my stomach, and a pulling within my chest area. I wonder if I might be pregnant? I just have a "feeling"–I really haven’t been keeping track of my periods, so, I can’t rely on that; but it has been 3½ weeks since I last bled, and that only lasted 1½ days. (As opposed to almost 2 weeks). If I still haven’t had my menses in another 2 or 3 weeks I’ll have it checked out. Besides, when I first became pregnant with Aaron I got "car sick" and then a couple of weeks later my boobs started aching – an ache I couldn’t miss even if I tried! What would I do if I was pregnant again? Deal with it, of course; but I don’t think, hell, I know that I’m not ready to do it all over again. I haven’t gained any weight, so there’s no need to sweat yet.

I think I’ll go home and have an onion bagle and some soup. MINESTRONE. (I wonder why that "e" is silent?)

I’m glad I’m gonna see Trudy tomorrow. I’ve stopped taking the Paxil, bcause it was keeping me from getting orgasms, which I could only be a good sport about for so long!