I’M SO CONFUSED

I’m so confused, my control I lose

I built so long, it became real strong

But this probing, is knocking my wall usunder

Leaving me to worry and wonder

I feel so overwhelmed, hopeless and lost

I’m gaining my "self", but at what cost

Who’s gonna hurt, who’s gonna suffer

Who’s gonna emerge strong and tougher

Will it be love, or will it be anger

Will he treat me like a complete stranger

My changes are vivid, my changes are real

One day soon, I’ll be able to feel

But I’ll feel the pain when he rejects me

Because I rejected him, on my healing spree

It’s a no win situation, these changes I’m facing

I gain myself, but I lose everyone else.