December 28, 1993

December 28, 1993

1:25 pm

I’m here at the Acadia, waiting for Kevin to pick me up. I just had a meeting with Trudy, and I have lots to think about, and ponder. (Look for my 4-color pen when we get home.)

December 29, 1993

6:49 pm

Today has been really frantic! Today This a.m. I woke up with little red dots ALL over my body! I was scared that it might be chicken pox, so I wouldn’t touch Aaron, because I was afraid if it was contagious – the baby would "catch" it. (Bambi got chicken pox from ME when we were I was ten or eleven, and then it was discovered that Bambi had Luekimia.) It was always told to me that if Bambi died it would be my fault. (I’ve always believed it.)

Well, it was only an allergic reaction to a medicine that I was taking. WHEW! Also, Dr. Buchanon said that if I don’t get the Biopsy done, within 7 years (by the time I was 30) I could be dead. It’s scary though, because what if they find something REALLY bad? (Although the thought of dying THAT EARLY is even scarier.) Also, I tried to apply for "help" at D.H.S., but Kevin makes too much money! It’s really unfair that someone like Maret can sit on her fat ass for 20+ years and bring in xtra money, and get get all her "needs" paid for plus xtra money–and Kevin works full-time, & I did before Aaron was conceived but try and get some aid from the state, and they punish you for working! We’re $600 behind on bills (for utilities) and also behind on a car payment and a house payment. Will we ever get out of this hole? Alice at Fl s Skowhegan Savings Bank was really nice when we told her we would be a month behind at least until February. In July or August Kevin and I are going to have Pastor Jaworski (he married us originally) he’s gonna help us renew our vows at the Stetson Union Street Church. Renewing our wedding vows. In the summertime, in "our" church ( when we first started going out Kevin said we would get married someday in our ch that there.) there someday Birthdays What could be more romantic?