CLIMBING OUT OF YESTERDAY

In my mind of yesterdays past, I see a confusion that’s gonna last

Last through today, and last through tomorrow,

drowning me with pain and sorrow

I can’t see a reason behind this pain, it’ll only make me remember again

It’s been blocked for years and years, you see

because I never stopped to look at me

But now I’m looking, and I can’t find;

I’m honestly scared out of my mind

There’s really no Amy: really no Sue, please tell me what to do

Who can I punish? Who can I blame?

I know who he is, but he has no name

If I was to say his name out loud, it’d make it real;

and people would scowl, because I couldn’t deal with it alone

I couldn’t handle things on my own

I did something I really abhor;

relied on someone else to find the cure

Put my emotions in someone else’s hands

hoping they would understand

and not be too critical, not be too crass

Not think I was a pain in the ass

Just doing it for attention, just feeling sorry for me

I’m just trying to make the whole world see

I’m fine, I’m great, I’m better than most

but I can’t help feeling a little lost.