Another poem to me by Kevin in 1993

PATHETIC LOVE LIFE OF MINE

BY: KEVIN

WHEN I WAS A TEEN AND LOOKING FOR LOVE

I FELT SO ALONE THAT IT HURT

I WANTED TO FIND A GIRLFRIEND WHO CARED

TO LAUGH, HAVE FUN, AND FLIRT.

TO GIVE MYSELF TO A GIRL AND BE ALL SHE EVER WANTED

TO START LOOKING, I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW

I DREAMED OF BECOMING SOME FUTURE BRIDE’S DREAM

BUT TO FIND HER WHERE DO I GO?

IN MATH CLASS ONE DAY A GIRL WALKED IN

BOY, WAS SHE CUTE AND SO SHY!

AS THE DAYS WENT BY AND I BEGAN TO OBSERVE

THIS CUTIE REALLY CAUGHT MY EYE.

IT BEGAN WITH A NOTE, THEN A PHONE CALL AT HOME

THEN A DANCELESS DANCE AT OUR SCHOOL

WE’D GO OUT TOGETHER, GET MAD AND BREAK-UP

AND SOMETIMES WE’D ACT LIKE FOOLS.

THE DAY WE MADE LOVE I KNEW THEN AND THERE

I’D FOUND THE ANGEL THAT I SOUGHT

WE GOT A HOME, WERE MARRIED AND HAD KIDS

THEN CAME THE BILLS FROM THE THINGS WE HAD BOUGHT.

MY ANGEL WAS EATEN FROM A DEMON WITHIN

A DARKNESS I HAD REFUSED TO SEE

DOCTORS, DRUGS AND THERAPY, ABUSE FROM THE PAST

ARE WHAT’S LEFT OF MY LITTLE "SWEET PEA".

BICKERING AND FIGHTING ARE SOLDIERS OF WAR

A CONFLICT I CAN’T SEEM TO WIN

I SIT AT MY CAMPFIRE OUTSIDE HER FORT

JUST WAITING TO BE LET IN.

ALL FEELINGS ARE GONE, I’M NUMB TO THE BONE

WHAT DID I DO TO BE SHUNNED?

AGAIN, I’M ALONE, WAITING FOR HER LOVE

MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE STUNNED.

i AWAIT FOR THE DAY SHE’LL WAKE UP AND SAY

"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS!

KISS ME IN PUBLIC, MAKE LOVE IN THE LAKE

LET’S JUST HAVE FUN AND FLIRT!"