9-23-93

2½ weeks left! My little "bundle of joy" is being very rambunctious! I wonder if he’s looking for a way out?! Guess what Kevin bought me for an early birthday present? (My 23rd is exactly 3 weeks from today.) Anyway, he bought me a color t.v. set, a 13-inch for the bedroom. It comes in really nice, too. (Maybe now I can sleep in the bedroom when K isn’t home!?) I’m getting anxious about labor + delivery now – when’s it gonna start? How long is it gonna last? Will I be able to handle it? Oh God, what have I got myself into?! I guess I have been smoke-screening myself for the past 7 months.

9-25-93

The date of Elizabeth’s supposed arrival – ah so! I wrote before that it really broke my heart that she couldn’t come, and I was being sarcastic, because I was really dreading a visit from her, because she and I basically have nothing in common with her anymore! She’s 23-years-old, and single, and "living-it-up": she goes to bars, and hangs with a bunch of different guys, all of whom "like" her. You’ll never guess where my husband and I spent yesterday morning?! EMMC/7th floor!! I was having contractions, and they got to be 6 minutes apart, so Dr. Buchanon told me to go to the hospital, because it sounded like the "real thing." Kevin + I got really excited, cause we thought by the end of the day we’d be mom + dad, but it was a false alarm! So, how am I gonna know when it’s real? And how can Dr. Buchanon believe me when I apparently have no clue?!

9-28-93

Ok – Good news first – I (and K) think that I am really in labor right now. (Bad news is that I can’t be really sure, and I’m afraid it’s "false" like before.) I woke up this morning at 6:00, and I was having back contractions–and I’ve been timing them-Keep your fingers crossed!!