11-17-93

11-17-93

Been awhile. Me + my feelings are doing really well. I saw Beth 3x’s last week, and 2x’s this week (I see her again tomorrow.) And then we are only gonna meet once a week. Beth says I am doing extremely well, and it won’t be a LONG process. I had a "breakthrough" last session, I recalled  an episode involving my mother, and I actually cried! But it’s one memory I can deal with head-on. I’m gonna try a little more remembering later. The more time I spend away from Mom, the better I feel, but I still have the need to call her. But, I’m working through that. She hasn’t called or written to me, so that has made things a little easier.

11-23-93

Things are going extremely well. I saw Dr. Buchanon for my post-partum check-up, she said things were healed really well, and I should have the results of my pap-smear within 2-3 weeks. I didn’t have all that much trouble with the pap and that was a relief. I also called Dr. Buchanon at home, and we talked about a birth-control called "Norplant". It’s about a $600 operation, and Dr. B said that medicaid would pay for the operation, so we are scheduling before Dec. 31st, I have to call the office tomorrow to make an appointment. Norplant lasts for 5 years, and is even more effective than the pill. Kevin + I have been making love for 2 weeks now, and I haven’t even had my period, so I hope to God I am not pregnant. We’ve been using condoms, and Kevin is sure that there’s no chance of a pregnancy. Hope to God not. But until I get my Norplant, Kevin + I are gonna use "foam" with the condoms. I couldn’t live through having another baby – how would I react?