10/05/1994

4:26 pm

I’m horny right now, which is good, bcause I haven’t been very interested in making love for quite awhile. Who knows how long the feeling will last.

5:01 pm

K & I just made love, and it was great! *picture Tony the Tiger saying "GGGreat!"* It hasn’t felt that good in SO long–I’d almost forgotten how good it could be! And the 2nd best part was the fact that I don’t hurt! Whoa, mama!

I had alot of things I wanted to write about, but they allude me at this time.

K & I are finally caught up on our bills, I think we owe B $75 and $200 to get oil, about $150 to K Oil, and $140 for insurance: Geez, how depressing–here I was thinking we were out of that deep, dark hole, and we aren’t. What the hell are we going to do when I stop working and we lose that x-tra money? Love just won’t be enough to carry us through the long & cold winter months! Especially with Aaron losing WIC in another 13 days. We won’t make enough to live, but we make too much to get any help from the state. What are we going to do?! K says we can do it, but I’m not so sure.

October 12, 1994

6:00 pm

Today is Aaron’s 1st birthday! It’s hard to believe that my baby is a whole year old! We had a party for him, and Dad & Mom, Shawn & Kara, Kathy, K & I (plus Aaron) were all there. I made a huge lasagna & salad, an K & I bought 2 loaves of italian bread. Things were all-right, but a few things bothered me (1) Shawn & Kara scarfed ALOT, but neither one of them said "thank you" to me! (K told fil, and fil told Shawn to made sure he said thank you to me! (2) It was just really crowded and my nerves were a little jangled. I had an interview at Ames at 4:00, and I’m supposed to get a call Thurday or Friday.

This is my very last entry in this book, bcause I’m getting a new journal for my birthday.

Adios!