08/19/1994

8:58 pm

Shit, I’ve sat down to relax, and I suddenly remembered that I forgot to take my pill. DONE. Tonight I took Angela up to the trailor where she used to live in West Etna. She & Paul broke up, and she and the girls (4½ month old Brittany and 3 year old Tiffany) moved in with her parents. I feel really sorry for Angela, bcause now she has 2 children by different guys and she’s single/living w/her parents. But, as it was when Lori M was single w/Meghan, I am a little jealous of Angela’s "freedom" in life and in raising her children. But I really don’t want to be alone, so I thought so raising Aaron by myself isn’t even "coming this way". So I thought to myself, that I MUST be unhappy, made a "mental" list of what was making me so "unhappy": and spoke to K about it. 1st and foremost was my mil’s upcoming visit. I’ve felt very "helpless" in this whole situation, and when I asked K if we could "compromise" Donna could stay the first month, month ½, but after that she could stay w/Kathy in Bangor. He said he would speak to her about it.