08/08/1994

6:47 am

It’s a pretty chilly morning for summer, but I guess it stands to reason, bcause fall is just around the corner. Scary, huh? Aaron had a clean diaper & a bottle, and he is a happy camper–where it’s such a chilly morning, I put a pair of jammie sleepers. I can’t decide if I want to take a bath, or sleep for another 2 hours – (I have the alarm set for 9). I didn’t get to sleep until late (1 am) bcause I took a laxative last night (I was suffering from gas) so I’m tired, but I usually sleep so much, that it seems I am sleeping my life away. I guess where I am going to be having another child, and Aaron is still little, I’m gonna make a career of being a "homemaker". If I could find fullfilment in what I have & do, and not have to always outdo myself and others, I’d have licked one problem.

Watching Aaron & tending to the house and K is a job in itself. (Especially watching a baby!) And he goes through alot of changes–so far he’s got 4 teethies, and 2 more on the way, he dances to music now, and says things that resemble "da da" "ma ma" "hi" "ba ba" "oh" and a wild screech! He reaches for Mama + Dada, and now Grampy. The kid is somewhat spoiled, he gets what he wants, and I’m quite sure he dnows he has us wrapped around his finger. I’m slowly trying to teach him "no", although I get the opinion that "he’s too young to know the meaning of that". Bull. I don’t hit my child, and I don’t rave madly, but I say "no" firmly and sometimes I tap his hand if it warrants it. I’m a good mother, and face it, when it comes to who disagrees, MY WORD GOES. Except with K, his views are an important part of raising our son–but face it, I have the bigger part of the responsibility, bcause I AM home with him/so that helps my confidence.

It’s 10 minutes of 9:00, and I still am awake. Just got a call from McDonald’s in Newport–the manager wants me to come in for an interview. I wanted to talk to K about it before I got ready, but I only have 1½ hour until I have to be there, and he isn’t home!

1:32 pm

I got the poopies! I also got the job at Mickey D’s. YES! People can say it’s not a great job, but I AM EXCITED about MY JOB. I have an orientation tomorrow at 9:00, and then tomorrow afternoon I have to work 4-7, to start training to close the restaurant at midnight. I’m gonna work 2 or 3 days a wk – 5-12. I asked for Saturdays and Mondays off. Kim said that they were very flexible about days & hours.

I’m gonna be starting off on the register. COOL. I also talked to Trudy (who talked to Dr. T) and they said it was alright to stop the meds.

August 11, 1994

1:50 pm

Dr. T prescribed a new med today, said it was a "spin-off" from Lithium. K said I could get it tonight. He’s gonna be at his job for 1½-2 hours, and Aaron is gonna be at Shawn’s, so I have a few things to pick up. Then K & I are going to the movies.