06/14/1994

1:30 am

Aaron is all "bunged" up in his belly. I am "bunged" up in my mind.

2:30 am

Trying to go to sleep is not really doing me any good. I’ve been tossing and turning for an hour now.

BIG PLANS next summer! Write about it later. I have a big project ahead of me.

*AUGUST 12th 1995

12:00 pm

NOON

OK, BIG PLANS!; Kevin & I are going to have the wedding we never had! Next summer. And since it’s my wedding, I’m gonna do it exactly like I want. And since it’s over a year away, I have plenty of time to make plans & get everything perfect. So far, all I know for sure is I’m gonna have special invitations made – but I’m not sure what they will say. And the "Stetson Church", and I’m buying us rings "Three-ring ceremony" AND (one more detail) I think I want to make my own dress–off white and a veil.

I just talked to Trudy, and she said she thought it was perfect about our wedding–and she would be happy to be my Matron of Honor.

I just saw John Lovely, and it reminded me of a time in my life of wild days and NO ROOTS or meaning.

Kevin says my sewing machine is broken – it needs some kind of band.

8:something pm

Dad said he would be happy to give me away next summer at our wedding – I really am surprised, bcause he said he would NEVER come to Maine – but he said he would love to bcause he never got to give either of his daughters away. I asked Debbie to be my bridesmaid, and Donald & David to be our ushers. And I’m gonna ask Leanne if Kristin can walk Aaron up the aisle (bcause he’s gonna be our ring-bearer) and I’d like Nicki to be the flower-girl. Debbie suggested that I pick out a dress in a bridal magazine, to make sure Trudy & she like it–bcause I don’t have to buy either of theirs. Probably Kristin, Nicki’s, & of course A LITTLE TUX FOR MY BABY BOY. I’ve already picked out my wedding dress at Olmstead’s. It’s creamy white, short sleeved. It costs $85, plus an extra $20 bcause it had to be taken out (material on both sides) so; let’s see, I should be able to get it by the middle of July. Debbie said I wasn’t planning too far ahead, bcause it will get here really fast.

RECEPTION:

In our front yard/garage.

Rent 1 long table for food & cake. (Taylor Rental # – $)

Decorate garage – Pink & white Balloons & crepe paper

Pink & White plates

Pink & White silverware

Cups?

1 pink & 1 white tableclothe

knife/server set

garter belt

pumps

Kevin says that I am obsessing, but I just like to PLAN.