Yesterday

well, i never liked hard core metal or screaming music or whatever, but my friends convinced me it would be fun. Yea it was a cool experience but the music was too loud and i felt like i stood out cus i was dressed differently and stuff lol. ppl were glaning at me weird. ne who i just sat back and watched ppl hardcore dance haha. it was ok but i dont think im gonna go to another show like that. OMG AND I WENT TO MY FIRST (and only until i dont know when) PORN STORE! Since megan, cara and i are all 18 cara took us there and it was soooo grose! i was completely surrounded by naked pics of ppl and pics of ppl having sex! The guy at the counter id’d us and then took out this dildo of this almost foot long dick that was like 5 inches in diameter! it looked impossible that anyone could actually have that size but he said it was a replica of a guys penis who does gay porns! and hes like yea so guess where this guys dick goes….I was like EEEEEEEEEEEEW EW EW EW OMG and i was freaking out and caras like OOOH COOL and hits it and its waving back and forth :-S UGH! i was like “put it away its staring at meeeeee!” Jeff was with us and he laughed at me, but ugh i wanted to get out of there as soon as possible! ne who yea…….after the concert we went to chris vanwicks party (hes a guy in the band claymore that we saw) and it was pretty cool. everyone there was drinking but since cara was driving i didnt want to drink cus she couldnt and megan didnt either. plus all that was there was beer, and beer makes me vomit. And i didnt want to pitch in ne money for the beer cus i already spent a lot. but i had fun talkin to everyone. everyone was really nice and funny. Caras brother was being a grump to her that night though. Hes never really nice to her when i see them together. I dont get it. why does he think hes too cool for her? I mean, a guy shouldnt be nicer to his gf than he is to his sister. but yea hes really hurting her, and i wish she would tel him how she feels because he cant just know. i think she expects him to know but he wont change unless they both try to find a solution. i feel bad for her though. ne who we left and went to caras. and what had to happen that night? my friend of the month! AHHHH. this morning i was sick and had major cramps. Cara had to go to her job ( hehehehe lol cara) and i went to my nail appointment. (yea im getting out of the habit of biting my nails) and now cara and megan are at my house and we are going to some guys house tonight that cara knows. maybe he will have cute friends? i dont know lol. but im too shy to flirt anyway. man, im still not over my cat being gone. i tried not to think abiout it, but when i was gettin my nails done today the tears just came. i think she noticed but she didnt say anything. I miss my kitty. i know hes in a better place but i miss him. sigh. okies cheau.
hannah banana