yea i know, another guy
so yea, there has been a guy named trevor living in the attatched apartment next to us for a few years and ive always noticed him! i always thought he was sooo cute and sometimes i would see him talking on his cell phone on their patio outside my window. he never seemed to pay much attention to me though, in fact i dont think he even knew i existed all this time. all he knew was that we were the landlords, and didnt really care to see us. it was only justin and tiffany that came over to pay the rent. any who, i started babyisitting tiffanys daughter eden, and one night when i went over there, justin and trevor were getting ready to go play a gig somewhere. of course i was really shy because trevor was there and i was really surprised when trevor started talking to me and smiling at me. he said that he had no idea i had lived over there for so long and was really surprised that he never saw me. we talked about music then and he gave me a sample cd to listen to of one of his old bands. then one night when liz was spending the night, he threw cat food at my window to get my attention and asked me if i liked the cd. i said yes and then he asked me if we could hang out sometime. my face got so red, and i said "sure!". when i closed my window i was all giggly lol. i couldnt believe he was actually wanting to hang out with me haha. what luck ive been having lately. problem is , im still seeing jeremy. and for the first time im having a hard time deciding which one i like better. trevor is really open so far, i can tell. he easily compliments me and doenst hesitate to tell me that he likes me enough to want to hangout and the different things he likes about me. we had a really long convorsation till about midnight one night when he came over. it was really nice ^_^. and the weird thing is, he reads me well. BARELYA ANYONE CAN READ ME WELL! right away he was like " your shy around me huh? why? do i scare you? and then he was saying "you know what? you think too much. you need to learn how to go with the flow of things!" When he found out ive been dating here and there and im seeing another guy as well, he said " not to offend you or anything but this is what i think. i think that when you are dating more than one person at a time, it keeps you from really getting close to that person. and its perfect if you dont want to get hurt because it keeps you from really getting to like someone or keeps you from getting close someone. everyone gets hurt its just part of life! nobody can promise you they wont hurt you, not saying that they will, but you should at least let someone in. "
these are all things i think about and know about myself that i did not tell him! he just figured it out! i felt like i had nothing to hide, as if he could see right through me. it made me feel uncomfortable having no place to hide, but at the same time maybe thats what i need right now. i dunno im really confused of what to do now, but i guess im just going to go with things and see how they turn out!
sigh.
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